Live loose, don't lose!

This is the second week in Stanford.

And I’m quite surprised to find that the pace of the second week is much slower than I had expected.

I think it may be the result that I started to select which activity to join and which ones not to rather than just signing up all of them, throwing myself into such a busy condition that I rarely slept last week.

However, it seems that I’m not adored that I signed up three activities this week but ended being selected on none of them! I don’t think that is mere bad luck!

Though, despite being unable to join those interesting activities,

I did have more time to sleep, having a tour around this beautiful campus and the shopping center, etc.

Most importantly, I finally have time to think!

After I became a student of National Taiwan University, I always spend more than an hour each day to think about school, relationship with others, my future, and most importantly- what I am.

However, life here is always in a rush that hardly can I find some time getting along and thinking.

And I found it quite frustrating that my thoughts here become so slow that in the past I can easily come to a conclusion in Taiwan when thinking about something while the same thing would cost me two or even three times before I reach the conclusion- I’m not sure if it has some thing to do with the American food here or the living pace here-both of them are quite different from the way in Taiwan- highly-stressed, fast-paced, etc.

Maybe I haven’t overcome this kind of “jetlag!”

The topic I’m thinking about recently is why I’m here to join this program and what I got.

Of course I learn something here;

I practice using English everyday, despite I don’t think it’s improving since I still have problem understanding the native speaker's English- so fast. What I found is that I become more and more relaxed with my grammar errors.....woops.

I watched the beautiful scene here in both Stanford and SF,

but sometimes I wonder if it’d be better if I go along so I have more time to spend on where I like and less time on spots that’s not so interesting to me.

Controversial questions like that keep on striking on me while I really have little time to think of a clever thought to explain them.

And I just feel discomfort as long as there’s something on my mind- I always want to find an answer to my questions.

Also, sometimes I feel along when I’m thinking as if I have any friend to talk with. Despite it’s always happy chatting with friends, sometimes I even doubted what I got from the time and energy consuming talk.

I’ve always been a controversial person since I entered university, but I think the situation is getting worse after I got here.

I hope I can find an answer here to all the questions, either those accumulated in Taiwan or those occured to me here since I think I had greatly broaden my horizon here! I’ll try to find my answers here!

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I only got a B for this journal, probably because it's not really a journal, or may because I handed it in late.